I have a case of fucked up eyes today, something wrong with my double eyelid or some kind. Sian! And my skin feels tight. Hope I feel better by tomorrow. Its TGIF once again. Phew. Finally got my first draft out for my tender. Good. Its progressing according to planned.

On a random note, I kinda like the serials running on ch 8 lately. The 7pm one and 9pm hahhaa. Quite auntie man, but somehwat grown to liked them. Chen hanwei is quite entertaining to watch. Lols. Can’t believe I just said that.

Speaking of chen hanwei, I made up a quiz some years back when I was bored to see how people will respond. Its my version of hipness-meter. It goes like this:

Do u want to be
A) han ren
B) han jian
C) qing han
D) luo han guo
E) chen han wei
F) liu han

Hahaha.

Damn you headache! 2 panadols only provide temporary relief! Now its back! Can’t sleep on the transport home either. Super sian! Its thursday tomm though. Yay? Still haven’t prepared the draft for my tender! Have to leave it to tomm once again! So many interruptions!

I’m yawning every 15mins. Wtf!

Maybe I could use a stiff drink?

Tried the food at sultan plaza near keypoint today. Simple dishes like minced pork (looks like the malay begadil- sorry don’t know hot to spell), stir fried beans and broccoli and the signature dish the curry/asam fish head. Overall not too bad and best of all, we achieved our objective of getting our contract extended so that’s a big bonus.

Had a weird dream last nite, my colleagues from work appeared and I was speaking to the human resource mgr of a certain hotel and my human resource mgr were also in the same dream. He was trying to cue my bf to turn up the music volume for a certain opening ceremony?! Gosh! Am I too stressed or what?! Haha got a few tenders and proposals to work on. Can’t wait for the end of november to be here so can relax a bit. And the trip to bkk in dec! So looking forward to getting a break!

When is enough, enough? When is too much, too much? How do you know u have achieved the fine balance of doing things just enough to keep others happy? How do u know if others are happy? If they don’t express themselves, do u assume they are happy or do u ask them if they are? Do u wait to receive the compliment? Or u just keep doing stuff u think is right to garner praises?

If u love someone, u can’t overwhelm them too cos this stifles them or as what mariah carey might say u become obsessed. And when that happens its danger ground cos u have the tendency of losing that someone cos u r simply too much to handle.

But if u are just playing it safe, u know just being neutral mostly but with nice stuff once in a while, it comes across as being complacent?

I dunno. It gets to me sometimes cos on one hand it seems enough but sometimes it never will be.

Some form of basic appreciation will be nice I reckon. When something nice comes up. Like what I have from work. At least I know I’m doing some things right and ppl appreciate me for what I’ve done.
Thanks.

I have bruises on both of knees cos of the constant accidental knocks I get when I get up the van every morning. The van is my way of getting to work as part of the company’s transportation. Its an art and a challenge to be able to get on the van on heels and when u r carrying your bags, umbrella or laptop, cos u need to ensure that u get on without exposing yourself (when u wear a skirt/dress) and u need to ensure u dun knock your head (the ceiling is low) and on top of that u need to be able to slide the door hard after u get on and its no easy feat considering u are half squatting the moment u get on, and u r on my heels with your hands full and yet u gotta free one hand to shut the door. Nuff said. And when u get to the seat (which by the way must be done quickly cos the van can’t wait at the bus lane so u gotta manoeuver quickly and sit down almost immediately), there is a seat belt fastener? On the side of the seat. I dunno wat u call that? Is that the correct term? The thing that the seat belt goes into? This bloddy thing always gets to me cos I always bang myself against it. And its hard. Greeat. Bruise.

And I got this on my wrist. Shit man.

I’m like all bruised and battered and apparently I don’t heal as fast as I like to. But I’m no wolverine! Sighs.

As I was saying I took on an experiment in recent months, just to prove a point. I had been pretty peeved with my flushed face after a nite out of drinks and while I had tons of fun downing stuff to get high , I suffered the next day having to wake up with a flushed face and the the redness didn’t go away as fast as I would like to. What was happening to me! Have my liver lost its function and I can’t break down the liquor as easily as I used to? Have I developed an allergic reaction to alcohol? Am I ever gonna be able to drink again! Gasp! Anyway I was quite paranoid and I hated my face getting red so I told myself to lay off the liquor even as I went clubbing. I tried that a couple of times and erm well it did work, which I was thankful for but wondered if I ever will enjoy as much if I dun drink when I club.

Anyway, and then I thought to myself if the combination of liquor made a difference, say I mixed different liquor or if I drink non-premium spirits. For some strange reason I tink it played a part. But most of all, I realised I have to drinks lots of water to flush out the alcohol in order not to have the aftermath. I’m glad to say on sat, I drank vodka ribena (absolut and not smirnoff, thank god) and champagne..and I was alright the next day. Phew!

Is it possible that you take the exact same route by cab but yet you end up paying a dollar and forty cents more? Is it a conspiracy theory by the cab drivers? Have/can the meters be rigged in some way??

Hmm tink I’ll probably be blogging more. The interest’s kinda rekindled. Hee. And I guess overall I feel well in a more happy, settled place, spirtually and mentally. I realised when things are fucked up, u simply have no mood to blog. Well, u can also blog when life’s fucked but then again if you blog everyday and everyday’s entry Is a sob story then u probably feel worse at the end of it so then really there’s no pt. I don’t know, I just don’t want to come across as too much of a whiner if I’m complaining abt something everyday. That would be so typical of a singaporean eh? Always complaining this and that. I tink its impt to take stock of your life and look forward rather than backwards. I mean who likes living in the past when all u get is sadness and pain? I wouldn’t want that.

The weekend, as usual is terribly short in my opinion but had a blast over a bbq hosted by my new set of colleagues. The house was great, albeit a rather ulu location re: nee soon camp. BUT the place was huge witha nice rooftop patio- fantastic for hosting dinner parties n chilling out with friends over drinks. Had plenty of laughs n booze, which erm can be great on normal circumstances, but I have been trying to cut down my alcohol intake as an experiment to see if my face will be flushed the next day if I don’t drink as much. Ok I would come back to the experiment later but to sum up the nite, it was fun cos we played several card games including heart attack! Haha the improvised version using poker cards. I like that game! And almost played uno therafter but decided not to be too enthu about it, cos well it can be quite lame to the others..
Anyway after a few rounds of heart attack, we had some champagne and then I reaslied there is a stinging sensation on my wrist. Then I realised I had a slit! Wtf! Somewhat deep and looked damn fugly. Shucks man! And the best part I dun even know I got scratched. Dammit!!!

its been a long while since ive blogged, its close to 3 months now? ha. well a couple of things have happened, i left my old job, got another one, went to batam and hongkong. and lately work has been interesting. its only the 2nd month into my job but already im busy like hell. the first day already jumped into attending meetings, and the rest of the activities include following colleagues around for customer visits, attending some MOU ceremony, clients’ DnD, company’s 7th month dinner,  press conference etc etc. the good thing is  my colleagues are actually quite a fun bunch! went clubbing with them recently and they are quite cool, even though they are all married. but the  venue was a bit of an unfortunate mistake, due to the F1 closures and shit, we had to go st james. but thank god for the music, courtesy of the event that nite. so thats ok. incidentally, my fav rnb song for the moment is  hotel room service. haha. 2, and 2, i undress you, and 3, and, you undress me. hahahhahah, Hotel Motel, Holiday Inn! hahahhaah

anyway, its a lazy sunday and honestly it being the eve of PH (yes monday;s an off day for me!) im getting quite bored. two fast too furious is showing on tv and we have the stupid dreary show called ai on ch 8. sob sob weep weep, im amazed that there is a loyal following for a show like this; more amazed that the scriptwriters can drag the show to like 1000 episodes. kudos to them man. i mean thats no easy feat. i caught a acouple of scenes below and i think the trick is to say something in like 10 different ways so its prolong the dialogue…. ….. im trying to think of some examples but, erm brain dead now. when i remember i’ll blog again.

till then.